Im like a rubix cube, hard to figure out.
Opinionated yet open minded. Stubborn and hard headed, trust me i wont back down.I don't make promises UNLESS i know i can keep them.I respect people who are different and dont just follow the pack. I'm not perfect - we live in a world where things are not always black and white! this year has been one of the most challenging mentally and physically and i've lost alot more than i ever antisipated. I've learnt that no matter how many times you fuck up there is always more to learn from your mistakes, and if you want something bad enough you've got to step out of your comfort zone and go for it! My friends look to me for planning events ect. i like to make the plans because that way i know i can work on them so they suit my mood. I practically live at my local pub, if you can't find me at home i'm likely to be found there ;) I believe that everything happens for a reason, good things fall apart so that better things can come together. AND I'm a strong believer in Karma



Wednesday, 18 May 2011

Changes..

Helloo... 
It seems the last time i wrote in here things were starting to improve:
- I was in the process of leaving primark.
- Things were improving with the family.
- I was preparing to start a new Job
- & Things with Bobby and I were going well.

Family: My relationship with my family has improved, theres no longer any arguments with my parents. My dad doesn't pick fights with me anymore. Im starting to be a bit more friendly to my sister in-law, im learning to like her so im prepared for two weeks in the dominican republic with her in july. My sister is still the best sister anybody could ask for. and things are going well. 

Pregnancy:  Yepp you read that right. I'm almost 4 months pregnant. and already the baby is turning into a spoilt little thing. It has soo many clothes and shoes and hats.. and as soon as I know the sex it will have alot more - buying white, cream or yellow is beggining to get a little boring now. I've been lucky. I've had no morning sickness. The parents wern't happy at first but they have finally come around to it and are very supportive. Bobby is excited, he cant wait to be a daddy :) I've been feeling little movements its the best feeling in the world, and i cant wait for more little reminders that my baby is kicking around inside me :D 

ED: I've been struggling, but i have something to keep me on track, I have my bad days where i dont have much of an appetite but I force myself to eat atleast 3 meals a day even if they are only little ones. 
Hopefully by the time the baby gets here i will have killed ED. 

Work: I love my job. I love my little old people. some can be quite violent and i've come out with a few cuts and bruises but i love the feeling of helping people. Theres never a day i wake up and dread going to work. :) 

Just a short update. Things are going well, im still here and still blogging just not as often :) 

Much love x x 

Thursday, 6 January 2011

Details of my first day at the dementia home :)

Today i had training for Moving and handling at the care home, It is safe to say i love it there, and cant wait to get my purple tunic and start properly. 

I had training with 4 other girls, 3 with experience in a care home and 1 in the same position as me with no experience at all, we all got on really well. 

The day started by sitting in the training room doing theory work about legislation acts, back care, different types of equiptment and the advantages and disadvantages.
We went for a 15minute break then went back to learning theory. In that 15minute break, I learnt alot about what working there would be like. I met a few of the patients there, a lovely man named John who hugged me then kissed my hand, there was also Barbara she had the sweetest smile, I found her whilst trying to find my way back from the toilet, she was wandering the corridors with two dolls which she seemed to think were her babies, it was sad seeing the way some of them acted, there were also some funny times.

After the break we done a lot more theory and then learnt how to help the patients stand up if they weren't capable of standing up for themselves. We took turns in assisting each other to stand up ect.

We broke for lunch, a 45 minute break, myself and Norla headed straight for the exit to the staff smoking area ;) then went back in to meet the others in the staff canteen, I had a pack of crisps and a bottle of summer fruits juice stuff and sat around talking to the other girls on the training course. Lunch was finally over, it dragged on for what seemed quite a while, and i couldn't wait to get back and learn more about the equipment.
We went up to room 2 on the 2nd floor a vacant bedroom where we were introduced to slide sheets, turntables, A hoist, Handling belts, and various other items.
We took turns with practising the slide sheets, handling belts and turn tables on each other, talking them through what we were doing like we would be expected to with the patients.
The hoist wouldnt work soo our trainer shaun went to find another one, while he was gone one of the patients Phillis unlocked the door to the room we were in said hello to us all asked Tina to move over and then got into bed. Shaun couldn't get phillis to leave the room so he called for one of the carers to come and get her, she was not amused, she wanted to stay in bed, she told the carer "Go away you silly bitch!" then when he asked her again if she would go out of the room with him she replied "i cant go out there its raining, theres snow in london, and theres too many chickenss outside" then she sat up and got herself out of the bed, then left the room.
I never thought i'd ever say i cant wait to go to work again but i really cant wait to go!!
We all had a go on using the hoist and being the patient and being strapped into the hoist, i hated it, kinda screamed. 
Just before we left shaun remebered i didnt lay on the slide sheet, i thought i'd snuck out of that one, soo i had to have a go, Anyways it turned out that i was lighter than they thought and they pulled the sheet up a bit far and i went flying up the bed and hit my head on the headboard :O lool 

I've been waiting almost 2 hours for bobby to get here, i just want to go to bed but i have to let him in first GRR. Its been over 3 months since we got together now, but it seems alot longer, and i have to admit i have enjoyed all of the time i have spent with him. 
He took me for a meal and to see a movie last night as a treat for getting the job. We went to an american diner (IN ENGLAND)  - how cool lol, then went to watch "the way back" which was an amazing film about communism and how a group of polish camp inmates escaped and walked from the prison in siberia all the way to indea, it told their story and the story of others, a captivating movie which i would recomend to anyone! 

Anywayss i better leave because im ranting about completely boring babble, the story of my life really haha!! 

Much Lovee

Becca x