I'm Going To Be A God-Mum && some other random rambling ;) x

Heyyy.

Omg so today my friend phoned me, she's 13 weeks pregnant and asked me if i would go along to the scan with her. Soo I got the bus to my friends house in gillingham ( A huge challenge, i HATE public transport) and had a look around her nice shiny new appartment, then off we went to the hospital for her scan. I have never seen anything so amazing, We heard the babys heart beat, watched HIM moving around, we found out she's having a boy! It was kind of noticed in the scan and it was typical of Philip (the baby's dad) to point it out saying "thats my boy! ;)". They gave me a copy of the scan photo and said "i tihink the god-mother should have a copy" Omg so excited!! I can't believe they want me, yes ME, to be god-mother.

After the scan we went back to crystals and philip left for work, we had alot of girly talk over lunch and lots of baby talk too!!
After lunch Bobby and Jamie came to collect me, then off we went with charlotte to hempstead valley shopping centre, where i brought a few more christmas goodies, and a few little baby presents, I swear this child WILL be spoilt ;) We looked at the halloween stuff and Jamie chased me around sainsbury's wearing a clown mask, So off i ran screaming in the shop begging him to take it off and hiding behind bobby so he couldn't get to me. After that he dissapeared and 3 hours later returned to pick us up then dropped us off at Bobby's where I met the parents again, after last nights meal I was feeling pretty awkward, then they asked me about my ED, Bobby must have told them, i don't remember saying anything to them :S Soo they asked a lot of questions, asked me about what help im getting ect, how my parents reacted about it how they're helping me, Soo many questions, but they were understanding and really nice about it.
Last night after the meal, i done something im not proud of, something i never imagined myself doing. I purged. I don't think i'll ever do it again, but never say never. I don't want to get into that kind of cycle.
My Insomnia allowed me to exercise from 1am untill 4am when i eventually decided enough was enough and just layed in bed shivering under my 2 duvet covers untill i fell asleep. I woke up at 8am after a disturbing dream, I swear i thought i was drowning!

Soo now i'm home tucked up under my 2 duvet's for an early night, in by 10pm seriously makes a change to the long cold walks home at just gone 1am.. Must catch up online first Eastenders, then some Waterloo Road, And then finally saving the best untill last The Inbetweeners, i swear i Lovee it, almost as much as i love skins, Which by the way is back soon :D

Im hoping to sleep tonight. Seriously i have suitcases under my eyes!  Mwahh xx