Heyy, soo these past few days i've been feeling so tired, I can't find the energy to do much and even the thought of writing this is too much effort, but i need to vent and have nobody to talk to. Nobody that really understands anways.
Im so sick of so called friends who are only around when they want something, a friend asked me to go into town with her tomorrow, I only see her when it suits her, when i need her- my "best friend" she just turns things around so its about her again!! Anyways i told her im not going with her and now she's completely blanking me but do you know what, i dont give a fuck anymore!
Today at work we had a fire drill, it just shows how bad our health and safety act is because most of us had no clue what was going on where the meeting point is or anything, we had to evacuate all customers from the building and wait outside in the freezing cold for the firemen to turn up and check there wasn't a fire. Being a complete idiot i forgot my jacket and froze in my thin short sleeved shirt. And to top it all of they wern't even sexy fireman they were old!! :O
So yesterday i went to the doctors, BMI checked, they said i'm underwight, as if i didn't know that anyways! soo we had a chat about eating my 5 a day (not going to happen i hate fruit and veg.) and some other things and was booked in for another appointment again today where they attempted to take blood, we had trouble finding a vein and then, the blood would not come out!! We got there eventually though.
So tonight i saw bobby for the first time in a week, went down to walderslade village and met up with some friends and just sat around on a bench talking having a catch up.
Tomorrow should hopefully be a duvet day, PJ's, Duvet, Movies, Sleep and cuddles with Dinky my princess.
Things at home have been okay.. except for an embarrassing moment today when my mum accused me of being pregnant! TWICE. i can't believe she even thought i might be pregnant, i told her to buy me a test and i'd prove it! WTF lol. I asked her what put the stupid idea into her head and she replied the doctors appointments, mood swings, and tiredness.
The parents are at my cousins birthday BBQ with fireworks ect, im not happy about missing it but there is a certain family member who has caused so much trouble that if i was to catch her giving me one dirty look i would actually wipe that look from her face! just the thought of the shit she has caused pisses me off!!
Food has had its ups and downs, I've been eating but not the right stuff. And not enough. Last night after dinner i felt a lot of guilt, soo i went running until the feelings passed. I asked my mum to lock the kitchen for me last night to avoid a binge =/
Anyways im off to snuggle up in bed, watch Celebrity Juice and hopefully sleep. :)
Nightt x x x
bolox ok forget pregnancy/firemen/and dinky but didnky sounds great imagine if sammy met dinky:L
ReplyDeletehmmmmmmm ya remember the vein experience too well!cringe
keep at it and at it and at it never ever ever give in to your corruptd thoughts and feelings,as for friends yup i feel you neway
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